Queen's Decree, Addendum #1

It is rude and unacceptable to listen to your MP3 player through your ear buds or to have a non-emergency or non-work-related conversation on your cell phone while spending time with The Queen. If you do so, your actions say nothing less than, "You are not important to me and I wish to exclude you from my consciousness."

Back to Work...and other inane comments

Yesterday was my first day back to work. I'm so grateful they held my job for me and so happy to have an opportunity to be useful again. It's uplifting to discontinue my boneless lump impression. I must say I do look forward to retirement, though. Boneless lumps notwithstanding, I never did run out of projects around the house.

Day-before-yesterday was Independence Day and it was a lovely one for us. We sat out front and watched our neighbors light their fountains and sparklers, then retired to the back yard and sat in the dark enjoying the balmy evening, watching as other, unknown neighbors set off their unsafe and insane fireworks. In other words, the good kind.

And now, for no particular reason, for he needs no reason other than because he's just so stinkin' cute...

When I Am Queen

When I am queen, I shall outlaw the use of "no problem" as a response to "thank you." Likewise "no worries" or anything other than "you're welcome" or "my pleasure." Violators will experience how a problem actually feels.

Service providers who address any group that includes a female as "you guys" shall be drawn and quartered.

People who wear hats indoors and/or sit sideways in a restaurant booth and people who fondle their electronic devices while dining or otherwise engaging in any encounter with humans will have their hat/legs/devices removed with a swift round-kick.

Anyone caught expectorating in public will get the hose.

Social etiquette will be a required course throughout a child's 12-year school career. Refresher courses required annually for adults.

Parents who speak rudely to their children and those who walk ahead of their child appearing to not give a rat's ass whether the child is still there, somewhere, behind them, will find the child gone. Gone. To Narnia.

People will be encouraged, not scolded, for addressing a woman as "ma'am." This is NOT an insulting term used to point out advanced age but rather a sign of respect, just as men may be addressed as "sir." Whoever decided otherwise is a buffoon.

Clothing companies will be required to adhere to strict sizing specifications for both men and women. No ambiguous "small-medium-large" sizing, and no vanity sizing. Simply state the length, width, and girth at the important points on a garment and let us not have to spend hours in a fitting room trying on more guilt and shame.

Got any peeves you'd like me to consider once I'm queen? Feel free to leave them in the comments and I will take them under consideration.

Now off with you.

Treading Results

A huge THANK YOU to each and every one of you who chose to cheer me on as I walked and exercised
my way through May and June. As a result of your support, not only was I able to spring back from my
treatments and regain my stamina, I was able to exceed my $500 goal and raise a total of

Treaders worldwide raised over $111,200 throughout May and June.
Those funds will be used by Love146 to continue their work in the abolition of child
sex trafficking by providing Prevention, Rescue, and Aftercare.

On behalf of all the kids yet to be rescued, and all those who are regaining their lives and souls
because of your contributions and the efforts of people who care,


The Wai-ai-ting Is The Hardest Part

Sorry for the delay in updating everyone but I’ve had Landon here for the last week and a half and the few quiet moments I get are spent crawling around the house looking under things, trying to collect my wits. Plus, I have a cold.

I saw the gyno-oncologist on the 16th. With apologies for the mental picture, I will tell you that he poked around a bit and said everything looks terrific. I told him I get that from all the boys.

I saw the radiation-oncologist yesterday. She too said everything seems to be a-ok.

No plans have been made for any scans. Gyno Guy says it’s too early for that due to the cumulative nature of the treatments. He says MAYbe a PET scan around the six month mark.

They both (allegedly without rehearsing their lines together) said I tolerated the treatments amazingly well and that I was a pleasure to work with. No kidding! In fact, Rad Doc said she has some really whiny patients right now and every time she has to see them she thinks, "I miss Mimi!"

I got through it all without radiation burns, baldness or barfies, and with precious little whining. While I attribute the latter to piss and vinegar, the former I only chalk up to dumb luck. And kick-ass anti-nausea drugs. Hurray for anti-nausea drugs!

While I remain 99% optimistic, nothing is called cured until one passes the five-year mark. I’ll see each of the oncologists at four-month intervals (Gyno Guy four months from now, Rad Doc four months after that, lather, rinse, repeat) for two years, then every six months for the following three years. If I accomplish five years cancer-free, I get to see them annually for the rest of my life. Good thing I like them both, huh.

The drive home from Gyno Guy was a pooky time for me. Evidently I was suffering a bit of denial and had forgotten about that whole five-year thing. I had gone there thinking there would be a big happy-clappy proclamation of renewed health with celebratory high-fives all around, glittery balloons dropping from the ceiling, a bubbly toast, and a whack at a piñata. Yeah, a piñata would have been nice. A tumor piñata. But, none of that happened. Instead, I got a guardedly optimistic thumbs up (no, not there!) along with a tactful but cautionary tale about how if the cancer didn't all get killed then blah blah something something. I kind of zoned out at that point, pining for the piñata that never was.

But then again, I did get cakes.

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Some of you know...some of you don't...the reason for the looonnnggggg gap between posts here. My last post was January 6th! On January 11th I was diagnosed with Stage 1B endo-cervical cancer.

January was spent riding an emotional roller coaster and getting every test known to mankind. By February it was determined that, while it had not metastasized, it was an "aggressively growing" tumor that, obviously, required immediate treatment. Chemo and radiation started in February and lasted until the first part of May.

I actually fared quite well in that I didn't barf once (thank you, modern medicine!) and my hair thinned but did not all fall out. I did lose my sense of taste for everything except sweets, which sucked because I'm not normally a sweet-eater. But since that's all I could taste, that's all I wanted to eat. Probably because of that, I only lost 10 pounds during treatment. Darn it!

Although I haven't gotten the final "all-clear" from the docs yet, we anticipate it will be so, so for my birthday Koby and Brooke made me tumor cakes.

before after

And here's a pic of some of the awesome chocolate-covered strawberries I made as thank you gifts for my doctors nurses:


I've been off work since the first week of February, and am still. Being a generally active/productive person, I went into this thinking the side-effects of treatment would be so minimal it would amount to a vacation from work. Yeah, I'd nap now and then, but mostly I would take advantage of the time to catch up on all those home improvement projects that have been sitting on my whiteboard for months and years. Ha!

While I did make a decision about kitchen flooring, it hasn't been ordered. I still haven't made a final decision about color for the kitchen and dining room walls. My shower, which has been in sore need of a complete overhaul since I bought the place in 1987, remains status quo. The gate still needs to be replaced, the back yard still yearns for paving, and the pond still has a leak. Oh yeah, and I totally forgot to write the great American novel.

Recuperation has mainly consisted of getting lots of sleep. I've read nearly a book a week. I also watched as a close friend of ours rebuilt our rotting patio roof while Steve assisted. That was exhausting for me. I also got to enjoy a weekend with my besty, Debbi!


My favorite daughter-in-law graduated from U.C. Davis last week. Her degree is in genetics and she's set to start her first actual grown-up job this coming Monday at a lab in West Sac. We're all uber-proud of her!!!  

Last weekend Steve and I went to Joel's for a visit. It was all too quick, as all our visits are, and I'm looking forward to Joel coming up on the train in a couple of weeks. Meanwhile, we have Landon. We brought him back with us just for the fun of it and so "Gamma" as well as Uncle Koby and Auntie Brooke could have some quality time with the kid before Gamma has to go back to work July 5th.

Landon, now two and a half, is getting lots and lots of words, some of which are actually intelligible. I hope to record him while he's here, as I recorded Joel and Koby when they were toddlers.

Landon is almost constantly in motion. The picture above represents the only time he holds still: when he's watching a Toy Story movie (aka "toy-oy-oy-oy-oy"). I'll post more pics of him in the coming days.

Gamma feels exhausted and has realized she may not be fully recuperated.


And now, a footnote relative to a NY Times article I heard about on NPR yesterday...

Six Things You Should Never Say to a Friend (or Relative or Colleague) Who’s Sick. And Four Things You Can Always Say

So at the risk of offending some well-meaning people, as Bruce Feiler says in his own rant, I'd like to add a few DON'Ts of my own:
  • "I can't tell you how horrible I feel for not having come to visit you!"
    Trust me, I feel horrible enough. I don't care or need to hear how horrible you feel for not having assuaged your own guilt over ____ (fill in the blank).
  • "You need to get a handle on this whole depression thing. Buck up!"
    Screw you and the happy horse you rode in on. I'll be depressed if I want to. Unless I'm in the fetal position in the back corner of my closet, trying to open a vein with a bobby pin and drooling out of one side of my mouth, leave me alone. Sometimes I need to cry, and I don't have the energy to concern myself with how uncomfortable that may make you.
  • "This may not be the only time you'll go through this."
    Seriously?? This one defies explanation.
  • "When you're finished with all this, let me tell you....."
    Whatever the issue is that you're dealing with, I'm sure it's of paramount importance to you but it pales in comparison to what's happening in my own universe. I really don't have any room for your stuff in here. Really. I don't want to hear it.
The most helpful words I received were from Steve, immediately after the initial diagnosis. He said, "It's all about you now. Nothing else matters." That meant I didn't need anyone's permission to say no and I didn't have to waste any energy on feeling guilty about how others might feel when I set my boundaries. He was right, and he supported me in that vein throughout my ordeal, even though he ultimately had to deal with the consequences of those words himself.


    This morning I stumbled over this article from ianyan magazine. Please give it a read and then leave me a comment to let me know what your own experience has been.

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